Its been a hard week, I haven't really had chance to rest and I have a feeling that when I go to clinic Wednesday it will be IV time. For the non CF readers, IV's are intravenous antibiotics that are usually given through a vein but in my case through a port as my veins are rubbish after years of being poked.For more info about ports have a click on this link. Port
IV's are used when my lungs are in need of a boost, they are tired and infected and generally acting up.At the moment I'm tired, a bit breathless, coughing up manky (sometimes blood stained) gunk and feel a bit meh! All signs that I need to bring out the big guns. The antibiotics I started two weeks ago have dampened the general ill feeling down but i still don't feel right. Its 14 weeks since my last lot and I normally go 12 weeks.. so all the signs are there that I need them. The thing is I don't want them. Now normally I am relatively sensible, if I feel I need them I would have them, but on the 4th march it will be a year since I met my boyfriend and I want to be tube free, I don't want to be drugged up and even more tired than I am now. (IV's tend to make me feel worse before I feel better) I want to be normal, just for a little while, for that day, for him. I want to celebrate meeting someone i'm crazy about without being tied to a four times a day schedule of medication.Its the most stupid of reasons but if I can just hang on for another week... I'll see what the doc's say at clinic. (then sulk until I get my own way. Ha!)
In more crafty news I have just made this flower for handmade Monday which is the most motivating thing on the internet :) Take a look here HandMade Monday to see what other people have made.