Tuesday, 18 August 2015

28th April 2014

That's when I last blogged...

Well, I'm back. Its been a funny old few years. After breaking up with the ex things took a definite turn for the better social life wise. My friends were brilliant, we didn't stop, there were trips out, nights in the pub, laughing until I couldn't breathe (admittedly that isn't too hard what with the crappy lungs) and just generally enjoying myself. That year and a half was spent putting myself back together, I was happy and content.I came to realise I didn't deserve to be treated how I had been for nearly three years.

The only downside was my health, I had never really picked up properly since the virus I had Christmas 2013 and the constant "Go! Go! Go!" attitude I've developed wasn't helping things. It all came to a head June this year. I'd caught 'flu in January which gave my body a real battering, I was in hospital for three weeks and when I had the chance to go home I jumped at it. I hate being away from home and, while I knew I wasn't better, I thought I'd be ok... nope.

I had yet another admission in April then, in June, I was just sitting on the couch at home when I started with the most horrible pain in my left side. The thought of a collapsed lung crossed my mind so of course I did the completely wrong thing by taking a few paracetamol and dragging myself to bed. A few days later I admitted defeat and rang my hospital. They saw me in clinic that afternoon and wanted to admit me there and then but since I only had the clothes I was wearing (and no phone charger!) I managed to talk them round into admitting me the following day.

I wasn't too bad the first few days, I think I had been running on adrenalin for so long that it was masking things but once I had chance to just stop fighting and let myself relax I became pretty ill. I started throwing up every time I ate, I had temperatures of 102 with uncontrollable shaking, the nurses had to fight me to keep the fan on to cool me down, I kept turning the central heating up, turning off the fan and wrapping myself in blankets..this was the hottest day of the year but I was bloody freezing.
My oxygen levels were through the floor and I was on oxygen as much as possible. I was told I had pneumonia, something I had had before so I wasn't too worried (ok, I was a little bit) The only time the state of my lungs worried me was after a rubbish ward round, I had been told I was likely to be in for weeks and it wasn't something I wanted to hear. I'd already been in a while, I was missing home and everyone I loved. I needed to get off the ward on my own ( I had been taken walks to the ward door and back and always on oxygen and you never get 5 minutes to yourself) So I took my oxygen off because, by this point I was damn sick of it, and basically stomped off the ward. I made it to the main entrance which was about 5 minutes walk, sat down then I was stuck. I couldn't breathe,my chest was so tight and I just couldn't get any air in. I didn't have a hospital band on as I always take them off if they are loose enough and I was in my "civvies" because I don't do pj's on the ward unless I really have to. I had this mad thought that if I keeled over outside among the smokers then I'd probably get taken to casualty and poked with needles.I managed to get back to the ward eventually and from then on I almost always behaved myself!

I was in for 5 weeks which has been my longest admission. Not something I ever want to repeat, but my doctors are really pleased with how I've picked up since and I'm really looking after myself (not that I wasn't before, I think I just needed the epic rest)

So yeah, crappy health for the past year or so but something brilliant happened too. I met someone. We have been seeing each other for just over a year now and, while this is always a bit of a cliché, he is the best thing that's happened to me for along time. He makes me happy and not just in a superficial, going out and having adventures kind of way (and we have lots of adventures) but actual, just being with him and doing normal things, kind of way. It must be love.. plus I think he is gorgeous and I fancy the bones of him (yep, that does sound superficial)
I enjoy spending lots of time with him, I've always liked having my own space and time to myself and always find it difficult spending extended periods of time with people ( I think that's why I struggle so much in hospital, you never can get much time alone) but it's different with him, he's my best friend and it's so easy being in his company.
 Ahh! I've turned into one of those mushy types!  


Monday, 28 April 2014

Frustrations and Flowers


It feels forever since I last look part in this fab blog tradition! It's hard to believe it's been going more than a year, it only seems like only yesterday the "Handmade's'' were in the double digits.

So, what have I been up to this week?  Well, I have taken advantage of the lovely weather and have been taking some photo's around the garden, I love this time of year (I've probably said that on this blog a million times up to now!)







You can just make out my sparkly slippers on this one!













Don't you just love how bright and fresh everything looks? Love it!! 

I was at clinic last Wednesday for my monthly check up, I've managed to avoid another stay in hospital for the next 5 weeks at least (well, baring anything happening, the nature of CF is pretty changeable , I can be well one minute and be flat out the next,  it makes planning a real hassle!) I've done pretty well after the rubbish time I had at Christmas, it's taken a lot of hard work, but finally my lung function has started going in an upwards direction which is a relief! 


I've been making necklaces with the pendants I have made using the glass molds I got for Christmas.  I put them up for sale on EBay 2 weeks ago thinking that £8 for 11 would be a bargain price for someone looking for car boot joblots ...I've only had 17 views and no bids, I'm feeling very frustrated and a bit despondent if I'm honest and I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong or where I can sell ( I've had a few on Etsy but again hardly any views. I'd love to sell them at Craft fairs but I can only do those now and again as they are such hard work and tire me out for days) I'm not really sure what I can do now... any advice (including "just give up!") greatfully received!!

Here is the Ebay listing if you fancy having a look Here.



I've also been making bracelets again after having a bit of a break from them. I think I will list this one on Etsy in the next few days. I do love the making, I think I just need a plan of action and do a bit of research on promotion so I can sell and afford more glass and beads! I'm not going to give up, just need to start feeling a bit more positive !





Have a fab week everyone!

Saturday, 12 April 2014

Elbow.

Well, its been awhile since I last blogged so I thought it was time for an update. Health wise I've been doing ok, I've still got a kidney store which I hoped would have been sorted out by now but after being fairly ill in January I had my last lot of Lithotripsy postponed and have a new appointment with the kidney doctors in September, I must admit its really frustrating having to wait again to get something that I thought would have been fixed by now actually sorted . Meh! 0ther than that I seem to be doing ok, my lungs aren't great at the mo but the doctors said I just need to be patient and if they haven't improved by my next clinic then I have to go in hospital for a bit for some heavy duty antibiotics. The Joy ! HaHa!

Its my birthday tomorrow, I'll be 32!! Scary! I've already had a birthday treat, last Wednesday I went to see the band Elbow with my two best friends who hadn't really heard of them but, after an absolutely amazing show, are now fans. It's nice to musically educate people! Ha! I've wanted to see Elbow for such a long time, it feel great that I finally managed it. It was the best gig I've ever been to (yes, even better than my first love,Radiohead.) with Guy Garvey's voice just as amazing live as it is recorded, he has some serious talent.Great Expectations nearly had me in tears as embarrassing as that is to admit! Of course they couldn't play a set without the anthem One Day Like This. The whole place was on their feet. It was a magic night.

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, 2 April 2014

Some Etsy Items

Here are some items from the talented members of The Crafty Folk Etsy team. All photos are links to the shops.


Monday, 17 February 2014

Back to Etsy.

I have finally, (finally!) managed to list something on Etsy last week. I've been feeling a bit down about my shop lately, I've let things expire and haven't really done much promotion. Partly because I haven't had much success and partly because real life events have been a bit tough...BUT... now it's time to pick myself up and get back into it.

I've been enjoying playing around with some new glass molds I was given for Christmas and, after a bit of experimentation, I made something that I thought was good enough to list on Etsy (the photo is a link to my shop) I really like this way of making pendants, I could get addicted to making them.


I'm also sharing some of the work of the The Crafty Folk team members. All photos are links to the shops.





Thursday, 30 January 2014

Crafty Folk

Here are some items from the brilliant Crafty Folk. All photos are links to the shops.

Friday, 17 January 2014

The Crafty Folk.

Here are some of the lovely listings from The Crafty Folk Etsy team. All photos are clickable links.