Just want to say a big thank you for the comments on my last post, I was in 'that' sort of a mood and the lovely comments helped get me out of it. You see there are a few things that I have to give some thought to at the moment but the big thing that was driving me mad was should I leave home or not (ok not a massive problem and didn't warrant the amount of angst I was giving it) It doesn't sound much does it? Not that hard? Well.. I have spent the last few weeks looking at flat after flat, all either too small (I'm hoping to share with a mate so two bedrooms are a must) or in dodgy areas (please don't think of me as a snob- honestly I'm not but when you notice that the areal cable on the side of the house has been cut in half, the alley next to it is full of broken glass and the house next door is playing nightclub levels of music it gives me the warnings and deja vu as I grew up in a place like that. And don't get me started on the one where the bedroom ceiling was black, not caused by damp as the bloke showing us around insisted but condensation... yes.. I'm sure it was.
I was feeling frustrated, to afford something decent I need a job, if I get a job (and I have had one) my health goes pear shaped, but if I don't work I can't afford something decent, so I need a job... and repeat.So I'm still living at home, which in all honesty I love, my parents are fab but I need to have my own space, I want to be able to spread my crafty bits and pieces all over the place and not worry about making a mess or them getting moved.
So this is the thing.. do I risk getting a job if (and its a big if) I can find one? I know it will affect my health(it did before) which is why the thought of being self employed so appealing.(I'm in no doubt that it will be tough but being able to work around treatments and hospital visits would make a massive difference) Do I give up the dream of a craft related business as I wont be able to afford rent and materials to make things with? Am I even good enough to run my own business and are the things I make sellable? Or do I stay at home, happy but not fulfilled? Or is there another option that I'm not seeing? Is it a bit weird that I would love to be in the position where I have to pay tax?
In other news, went to clinic Wednesday, have lost weight again (only a pound tho but that's a pound too much when you lack a bum) had a chat to the doc who said my lungs were a bit noisy which I totally agree with.. the upshot is that I'm now on the list to go in hospital for a course of the super drugs. Only just over two months since the last lot which is a bit annoying. Never mind tho, as it will give me chance to get away from flat hunting!
Other than that, I've had a fairly busy few weeks but more on that next time (with photos!)